Life sucks, esp. mine.
I know my posts are demoralising.
Don't read it if you don't want to.
I can't stand the fact that everything is my fault.
Just cause I'm older and supposedly understand the situation better.
She screams at me, I shout back.
Great, my fault.
She scolds me twice, I shout back once.
Great, my fault again.
I hate being an elder sister.
It sucks to the stupid iron core.
Everything that happens to that itsy bitsy teeny weeny one, MY FAULT.
It's so unfair.
Seriously.
When we're kids, we get bossed around by adults.
When adults are adults, there's no one there to preach and stuff.
Sometimes their actions are so stupid that kids think they're amusing.
Awesome.
Now my mum's giving me the cold treatment.
Haha, and once again, it has to be me to say sorry first.
Mummy, it's kinda time you realised that it's always someone else who says sorry first.
Not you, always.
No matter if it's Daddy, Janice or Me.
You NEVER say sorry.
I seriously can't stand it anymore.
Everything I do is based on HER.
Her - Janice.
Just because she got hurt, doesn't mean she's the boss here.
The previous week, she's been screaming @ me for a gazillion times.
Okay, I tell myself.
"She's hurt, don't quarrel with her."
But don't you think she's taking it too far?
And you're doing nothing to stop her.
I know I was wrong to say it's all her fault.
That I can't go to IT fair and go out.
But isn't it kinda true?
Because of her:
1- Our eating habits have changed.
2- We don't go out as often.
3- We're all tired from her calling us run up and down to look after her.
4- I can't freaking use the aircon at night and have to open the windows.
5- I can't go out openly, or she'll bug me.
ISN'T IT APPARENT ENOUGH?
I'm sick and tired of all these nonsense.
It's seriously annoying me you know?
i can't be bothered anymore.leave me alone, fuck off.
Please just go away and leave me alone.
