URGHHH.

Life sucks, esp. mine.
I know my posts are demoralising.
Don't read it if you don't want to.

I can't stand the fact that everything is my fault.
Just cause I'm older and supposedly understand the situation better.
She screams at me, I shout back.
Great, my fault.
She scolds me twice, I shout back once.
Great, my fault again.

I hate being an elder sister.
It sucks to the stupid iron core.
Everything that happens to that itsy bitsy teeny weeny one, MY FAULT.
It's so unfair.
Seriously.

When we're kids, we get bossed around by adults.
When adults are adults, there's no one there to preach and stuff.
Sometimes their actions are so stupid that kids think they're amusing.

Awesome.
Now my mum's giving me the cold treatment.
Haha, and once again, it has to be me to say sorry first.

Mummy, it's kinda time you realised that it's always someone else who says sorry first.
Not you, always.
No matter if it's Daddy, Janice or Me.
You NEVER say sorry.

I seriously can't stand it anymore.
Everything I do is based on HER.
Her - Janice.
Just because she got hurt, doesn't mean she's the boss here.

The previous week, she's been screaming @ me for a gazillion times.
Okay, I tell myself.
"She's hurt, don't quarrel with her."
But don't you think she's taking it too far?
And you're doing nothing to stop her.

I know I was wrong to say it's all her fault.
That I can't go to IT fair and go out.
But isn't it kinda true?

Because of her:
1- Our eating habits have changed.
2- We don't go out as often.
3- We're all tired from her calling us run up and down to look after her.
4- I can't freaking use the aircon at night and have to open the windows.
5- I can't go out openly, or she'll bug me.

ISN'T IT APPARENT ENOUGH?
I'm sick and tired of all these nonsense.
It's seriously annoying me you know?
i can't be bothered anymore.leave me alone, fuck off.
Please just go away and leave me alone.

Pretty? Oh yes.

13/3/09
Choir today.
Mr Toh didn't come.
Heard that he went to some RI concert.

Had mental skills at 3.
I think it's downright stupid okay?
They asked us: "Why are you here for practice?"
I said, for Aircon.
It wez meant to be a joke, but it wez written down :O

But I think the real reason why I go is because:
(i) Commitment
(ii) CCA points !!!
(iii) For the company of peepz there
(iv) ... No more.
(v) To work for SYF
Though I don't love Choir like it's my life, I really want that GWH.
It matters a lot.
Obviously, you'll feel proud if your CCA does well right?
Right.

Then they asked what distractions we have during Choir.
Many funny stuffs came out like:
1- Nail Polish
2- Why does Mr Toh wear the same clothes?
3- Caroline (eww, PLs.)
4- FOOD.

Later we had some 15minute Golden Moment.
Where we totally focussed during the performance.
We did kinda well, I guess.
But still have to work on the dynamics lar.
We repeated it and they recorded.
Aletheia's: "RO~!" wez super hilarious.
It was loud and eccentric.

JUST SEND ME THE RECORDING @ lowcarbz_3g16oz@hot.com
Hah, I'm hot.

14/3/09
Outing today.

Trained ALONE to Habourfront.

The bus had aircon, but I perspired as usual.

Watched Race to Witch Mountain.

HOTHOTHOT.

Watch it.

Okay, we had an expensive lunch.

My hands hurt.

Goodbye.

LAMBERT!

Elearning sucks.
The whole thing's so screwed.
Teachers just don't seem as clear as they are in person.

Everyone's like:
"Jane, where do you get the Bio info"
"Where to submit SS huh?"
"Chem is print to send to them?"
"Chinese you can log in or not"

Can you guys even be sincere in giving us holidays?
CCA already takes up 3/4 of our time.
There you are flooding Edulearn.
Holidays are more stressed than going to school.

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Okay, forgive my sudden outrage.
But my day's been nothing else but h/w.
Life sucks, FTW!

Anyway, watched American Idol last night.
I think the girl's called Jasmine, she got out.
The new rule's stupid.
Save one and kick two the next episode?
WTH????

And Megan was in bottom two.
Awww, but I like her.
And ADAM LAMBERT.
But like there's been news going round that he's gay.
I kinda trusted that piece of news.
But I was able to rebutt myself and like him again.

A guy in like theatrical stuff...
Use your peanut-sized brain and think.
How can he not wear makeup?
How can he not dress kinda like a girl?
How can he not mingle with other guys?
Just don't focus on the flaws.
Look at the big picture.
He's freaking HAWT.

Okays, I think the judges aren't so stupid.
They won't save someone at this stage.
They will wait until like final 3 or something.

I thought of something last night.
Like imagine it was top 2.
If they save one.
They have to kick out 2 the next episode.
Then there's no winner.
American Idol's smart!

Oh, and Kanye West was there last night.
Ewwwwww~
He was like some drunkard on stage who could sing Heartless really well.
I hated the fact that he had a towel at his butt pocket.
So stupid, TURN OFF.

Then there was Kelly Clarkson.
WOOOHOOO.
I used to be crazy over her.
Not quite that much now.
It's TAYLOR IN THE HOUSE.
Okay, sorry...

ANYWAY, her vocals are awesome.
Though her voice was kinda shaking that night.
Just a bit.
I can tell Simon really likes her.
And he HATES Fantasia.
Hah, go find out why.

This post is kinda AMERICAN IDOL-ISH.
So watch AMERICAN IDOL.
On Channel 5/ FOX - Wed&Thurs at night.
Idk when larh, just watch it(:

You barbie.

Nice songs!
(while people are still hooked onto Lady Gaga)

1. Ryan Cabrera - True.
2. Lady Gaga - Love Game
3. Kat DeLuna - Whine Up
4. Nine Days - Absolutely (Story About A Girl)
5. Nine Days - If I Am
6. Sara Bareilles - Bottle It Up
7. Paramore - Fences
8. McFly - I've Got You
9. McFly - Obviously
10. New Found Glory - I'm The Fool

Well, I feel that your chill out song doesn't have to be the #1 hit on 987.
So stop annoying me.

Anyways...
Went to school early for Councillor's meeting (intended)
Got bored, went for Choir instead.
No more elaborations wanted.

Maths was fine.
Mrs Heng had to leave.
I was a good girl.
I completed my work(:

PE was fine.
Other from the fact that I stink.
And we played Captain's Ball under the scorching hot SUN.
Fine, I'm not that sporty.

SS was fun.
Cause Mdm Frieda spent quite a lotta time preaching us about the environ.
She really seems like a passionate environmentalist.
:O
I love SS!

Chinese was ...
As usual.
You know what.

THEN HOME/.

I have nothing else to blog about so far.
I want a ZipIt!

Seeya banana.

It warms the inside just like it should.

Hey Monday - Homecoming

Joy to the world.

Many people are into SYF.

Thanks God.

Xiexieni.

Today was a drag.

Well, our oh-so-awesome teacher gave us HOMEWORK.

Thanks a lot, Mr -------

"Violatility"

Omg, LMAO.

*Inside Joke.

Breast Cancer Proj was kewlll.

The vid was so funny.

And there goes desperate SAC girls screaming for you-know-who.

Well, better not be so explicit in case some teacher IS reading.

Amaths was COOL.

I solved the stupid AMaths questionnn!

So happy kay???

I'm smart.

Got back History paper today.

Not quite satisfied.

15/18...

Next aim: 16/18

Anywayxzx.

Choir tmr -.=

I think I'll go for Councillor's Meeting since its important.

Ewww, School House Rock is such a aldfjwiejrqjriwg;gh.

So HSM-ish.

And the cast aren't even hot.

Bunch of bimbo/betches/pure ugly guys.

Wonder how much they got paid to do it.

I'll dig a hole and hide my face if I was in it.

What's worse, they even have an MTV for it o.o

OHOHOH.

Should I go for Sec 2 Camp Auds?

But I wna bond w/ my class toooo.

But I scared if I pass the Facils test then...

But I think I'm gna go for the auds.

Come with me, someone.

So long,

suckers.

Monday Mornin Blues.

Omg.
I love my new D90.
Sorry for boasting, but yeah.
It's so kewwwlll.
Fine, I won't disgrace myself and shock the whole world w/ my vigin shots.

Lessons were fine today.
I forgot to bring my Bio book!
Dang, fortunately it was practical day.
It sucked.

English was funnn.
"Mei mei kuai dian qu na!"
Haha.
THE FILLET-O-FISHES!
Then rushed to Choir -.= (*drools)

Had lunch w/ Tracy, Anna, Liz, Cheryl, Claire and Sara.
Well, life sucks.
Why do we have to choose b/w 2 positions instead of taking them both?
Then I'll be sandwiched b/w, great...

Choir was quite tense today.
Cause everyone was like "Audition tmr, auds tmr"
And the answer to Miss Tan's question.
I sing because it's Choir practice.
So I can train and get into SYF.
Not quite the model answer but that's the way it is for me.
I would be kinda shocked if someone went like,
"I SING BECAUSE IT'S MY BURNING PASSION THAT IS CONTAINED W/I ME"
Right...

Shall end the rantings here.
OMG, DAYNA. ANGELICA. SASHIMI. SUSHI. WHATEVER.

5 stitches, dammit.

Life seriously sucks.
I haven't have any fails so far this year, and not intending to.
God, please give me the motivation to continue studying.
Everyone's getting smarter other than me.
It's like everything's indirectly proportionate for me.
Whatever, why am I speaking maths.
Anyway, yeah.
You get my point.

English: I don't know but I have a bad feeling about it.
Chinese: B4 -.-
EMaths: A1, yay!
AMaths: B3
SS: A1, yay again!
Physics: C5 (PHY SUCKS)
Bio: B4, boohoo.
Chem: A1, yay thrice!
HistoryE: I bet the paper is lost in the teacher's unmarked mountain pile of work.

I promised if Janice is fine, I will stop, do my best to, not procrastinate.
And mugmugmug!
So, she's fine and I will do it.
I just hope this incident would remind me to perservere.

I never knew so much blood could fit into a small girl.